Critical Thinking, Conscious Thought, and Letting go of Reactions to the Sleeping World

There was a time in my life when I was in a state of despair– the sort of existential crisis that spiritual awakening, or traversing a spiritual path with depth– creates. I looked out on the world and saw darkness, I saw the diseases and imbalances and masks and lack of truth that people carried with them. I saw the conditioning that they were under, and how they reacted unthinkingly, and unconsciously, and based on fear and other emotions rather than any type of clarity.

At this point I was actually well paid for seeing this, and had made it my career. People came to me for body work, for energy work, and for spiritual healing and I was able to see right through them– to see the blockages, pain, and diseases that their body and soul had made. I still do this, I still have this capability, but it no longer creates a state of angst for me.

At a certain point in my path I looked outward and all I could see was falseness. I could see my own patterns and blockages and that of the world. I could see how people were acting in a sort of play, and most of them did not realize that they were actors in their own lives.

This was a difficult crisis to reconcile, as it required me to switch my vantage point.

But what does this actually mean? It means that I sat with this pattern, this realization, this darkness. I didn’t chase it away, I didn’t tell it that it was wrong, or angry, or react to it based off of it making me feel isolated, based off of it making me want to isolate. I sat with it to understand it, to offer it my ear, to finally listen to it.

And it told me that people are doing the best they can, or the best they think they can. That I am doing the best I can, or think I can. We all are doing the best we can, or more accurately, we think we can.

The more I realized this, the better I was able to interact with others, to see where they were coming from, and to offer them compassion. We all are doing the best we can, or the best we think we can.

And more than that I am able to look out at the world and see people awakening, claiming their inner light, and realizing who they are. To go beyond what has been given to them or created for them by various sources. To want to heal and become more whole. Most of us struggle with this– we are so used to our own creations, the illusions we are under, the play that we are in, and the thoughts and understandings we have been given.

It is a rare and beautiful quality when we are able to consciously and critically think.

Because many of us simply are not capable of it. Without realizing it we think the thoughts of our father and mother, of the wounds and patterns of our past lives and ancestry, what society wishes and creates for us to think, repeat the thoughts and ideas of our teachers and gurus (who rarely have created such thoughts themselves), and allow for our minds to create a reality based on our fears, the above patterns, and what we already know to be “true”.

We unconsciously look for words, ideas, and teachers that can placate us, that can keep us who and what we are. That fit what our mind requires to feel safe– to not grow, to not unfold or move forward. This is why there is such popularity with certain teachers who tell us that all we need to do is to think positively and we will have a new car, that if we “awaken” we will be an immortal millionaire in perfect health, that there is no such thing as evil, and that if something bad happens to someone, they on some level must have asked for it.

We have a plethora of teachers out there who are more than willing to cater to this, and who are willing to make simplistic, easy to digest mentally one-for-one associations (what a particular “power” animal means, if you have thyroid issues you must hate yourself, and so forth) that will allow for us to not think at all critically about what the events, symbols, and ideas that are coming into our lives mean.

I will illustrate this with an example that not many people are aware of. Many people are aware that Reiki, an energy healing modality, did not originally have to do with the chakras. But the chakras themselves were standardized in the “rainbow” format by Christopher Hills (in the late 70’s, early 80’s I believe) through his book Nuclear Evolution. Before that time, and by the accounts of many people who can actually see the chakras and the energy bodies that surround us, the chakras do not have a ROYGBIV (rainbow) format at all (actually a really good representation of what actual clairvoyants see is Dora Kunz’ The Personal Aura if you can still get your hands on it– it shows how all energy fields and their colors are different based on thoughts, experiences, and imprints of the individual).

But we all believe this to be true. This is what we were taught in our Reiki classes and through basic exploration of the chakras and books about the chakras.

In fact, I have had several natural healers and clairvoyants go to Reiki classes and be told they were seeing “wrong” and what they were doing naturally to heal people was “wrong” because it didn’t fit their teachings, and they came out of the classes confused and much worse healers than they were to begin with. 

So we can see how easily we are taught how not to think and to take up teachings without conscious thought. Now, I know many of you reading this are saying that you are not clairvoyant, and so the idea of seeing the chakras in another manner wouldn’t be possible for you. But you can still have your direct experience of them, however you wish to.

By this I mean that once you learn something, thoroughly and respectfully (always respect teachers, of course) you can “throw out” the teachings and experience for yourself. Does this chakra really seem red? Did what my teacher tell me make sense to me logically? What do I actually think about it?

Because what we are taught comes through the filters of another and their experiences, their beliefs, and more basically… what they were taught. It is often like a bad game of Telephone (the old parlor game where there would be multiple people standing in a row and the original person would say a simple phrase like “monkey eating a banana” and by the time it was passed down to the last person in line it would have turned into “mon senior has a bastien”.

Most of us simply repeat what our teachers say, what we were taught in school, and the patterns and thoughts we have been given. If we come across a thought that doesn’t fit into our proverbial wheelhouse, we either are not able to process it (cognitive dissonance, basically), or we outright reject it with an emotional reaction (either to ourselves, or more frequently, heaping our emotions onto the speaker, teacher, book, etc that has given their thoughts that do not fit into our own constructed universe).

So how to critically think? How to Consciously Think?

This is the real question. Look to your own thoughts and ask what would happen if they were not true. This is not an easy task, so start out asking if what you believe to be true about yourself or about the world could be slightly less “true” than you perceive it to be now.

But practically, read, watch, and see things that are outside of your comfort zone. Read a book you never would otherwise. Since this is a spiritual blog, I will say that a lot of people react when I tell them that I have studied and worked with many religious and spiritual paths– including the occult, magic, Hoodoo, Vodou (this one tends to be the big one), and folk practices from around the world.

Because of what we have been taught we would never educate ourselves on what Vodou actually is. We would never learn that it actually, first and foremost, a beautiful system and path of ancestral worship. We will never learn that the occult is just as concerned with “awakening” as new-age paths are, and that it can offer things that many “shamanic” or “spiritual” paths cannot– such as an understanding of how to work with the energies that comprise the Universe, how to actually communicate with angelic presences (beyond the new-age appropriation of them). How folk magic practices are inherently simple, effective, and can improve our finances, love life, clear energies off of us, and open our “road” so that we can have more ease in our lives.

But most of us will never learn this because we fear what we do not know. I recently read a book on Scientology, which I admittedly have biases towards (especially after watching a documentary about it). I state this because all of us should be continually learning, continually unfolding, continually questioning what we as individuals think and believe, and our inherent biases.

But we can do this in many ways. Go see a movie you wouldn’t normally see, a documentary, go hang out with people from a different culture, class, or religion. Participate in an activity that you have been holding yourself back from experiencing. Find people and thoughts different than you and experience them and let them change what you think. 

Most of us are unable to think beyond ourselves and what we have been given. This means that we surround ourselves with “us” – with the books, gurus, teachers, people, and experiences (food, culture, and pretty much everything) that is within our already created parameters. Much of what is wrong with this world (racially, culturally, financially, politically, and just in general) is this– that we cannot see outside of ourselves and think that the World has to cater to our constructed illusions and beliefs that have been given to us by others.

If we do so, if we are able to do so, we become more conscious. We start to become able to think for ourselves logically. We stop reacting based off of fear, off of emotion. We begin to see the world with clarity. We begin to experience the world with clarity, instead of the unconscious emotional reactions that we normally do. We let go, we release, we become happier, more accepting, and understand more about the world around us.


Energetic Cording

When we have any sort of relationship with someone, we form an energetic cord to them. 

Some of these cords, such as to people who we have just met, the checkout person at the supermarket, and others who we have not shared experiences or shared any sort of kinship with, are likely small, thin, and harder to perceive.

Every person we come across, every person that has crossed our path is some seemingly insignificant way we have formed a cord to.

If we have never energetically worked with cords, the number of cords that we could have from these seemingly insignificant and meaningless encounters could number in the hundreds. Or the thousands.

Some of these cords naturally resolve. But others we need to take care of to maintain energetic hygiene.

What is energetic hygiene? It is the goal of being as clear as possible of other peoples’ stuff. Throughout our days, and our lives, we collect a lot of energy that is not ours– emotions, stressors, and cords are some of the most common things to stick to our energetic field (the area immediately surrounding our physical body) as well as inside our physical body.

We like to think of ourselves as concrete, physical creatures but we are simply energy. Condensed energy that is. Our physical bodies are nothing more than energy that has grouped together and condensed to create our physical form. So it is common for other energies– those from our environment, from other sources, and from other people to energetically take up some of our space when it shouldn’t.

Energy hygiene to me means that we have practices and tools to maintain our own physical bodies as solely ours. Tools to realize what energies are within us, surrounding us, or approaching us. Most of us do not have these skills and are dealing with the effects of energy that is not ours impacting us.

How do cords impact us? In insignificant relationships (which we may have hundreds or thousands of cords to) we may simply feel unclear, fatigued, or uncertain. We may be so used to having so many cords that we are used to this state. Most of us have not learned the tools to understand and work with energetic cords, how to discern what energies are impacting us (what is ours and what is not), and what to do about it.

In more significant relationships, where we have developed more significant cords/connections to the person, we may have a variety of symptoms that are more pronounced. Exacerbated fatigue, illness, feeling waves of emotion, suddenly recalling the person whom we are corded to even though our relationship has long passed, not being able to move past a relationship we may have had, or not being able to heal trauma or experiences from a current relationship.

Working with cords is one of the most important aspects of energy work you can do. There is nothing like the sudden clarity that comes from releasing one toxic cord, or hundreds of seemingly insignificant cords.

Working with cords can help you release emotions, past events, past relationships, and come to new understandings about who you are. The release of cords wrapped up in family situations, in friendships, or with lovers/relationships can help you heal significant relationships in your current life. The removal of cords to people of the past can help release hurt and simply move on in a powerful way in your life.

This subject is so important, and is rarely talked about beyond a beginning level. In order to help the most people with this I have developed a course called Basic and Intermediate Cord Cutting and Clearing.

This course will take you through the basics of what a cord is, how to sense them, and how to cut and clear them. In the intermediate section it goes over how to work with cords that remain and how to release them over time, or through understanding the emotions, experiences, lessons, and energies involved in significant cording. Also discussed is the phenomena of “energy vampires” and the basics of how to recognize this phenomena and how to empower yourself so you are not a victim of one.

This work is suggested for really anyone, but especially anyone who is sensitive, who does energy work or spiritual healing, or who interacts with a lot of people on a regular basis– especially people in the helping professions, such as doctors, nurses, lawyers, social workers, retail workers, teachers, and more.

It is available on Amazon kindle here, or you can purchase the course through me here. If you are outside of the U.S. and wish to purchase the course through me, simply contact me so you can purchase it through Paypal.

And, as always, if there is a particularly difficult cord that you are working with and need guidance or help healing, you can contact me to set up an appointment for us to work on it together.

And yes, an Advanced Cording Course is in the works. Stay tuned for more details!

Spiritual Bathing: The Basics

One of the tools that I recommend most to my patients who are energetically sensitive in any way is spiritual bathing. Although it sound a bit trite to say (and to read I am sure) the practice of spiritual bathing has completely turned my life around. I used to be consistently exhausted, overwhelmed, and felt ill consistently (with illness that nobody could figure out) due to the amount of spiritual stimulus that was around me. This was despite knowing how to ward (protect myself and my home), how to clear my space, having proper boundaries, claiming my body, working through my traumas and illusions, and doing all of the multitude of practices that have helped me to become whole, given me power, and facilitated understanding on a rather deep level.

Despite all of this I still was overwhelmed because of my sensitivities. I could ward, banish, clear, cultivate my light and compassion and do everything “right” and because I was so sensitive I still was overloaded from seeing too much, from sensing too much, and from feeling the effects of the amount of energies attracted to me and just simply that surround me.

Spiritual bathing comes from pretty much every culture on the planet. It is mentioned in the Bible, it is mentioned in most forms of folk practices and magic from Greece to China to Africa. At its simplest, spiritual bathing is just as it sounds. It is bathing in herbs and minerals for a specific purpose. 

Spiritual bathing can be done for anything. It can be done to clear energy from you (or from inside of you), release emotions/trauma, clear blocks, bring in new opportunities and money, engender romance, for fertility, for protection, sealing of the energies around you, and simply for relaxation.

The prescribing of specific herbs and minerals for spiritual bathing should be done by an experienced root worker, root doctor, or folk practitioner who understands the spiritual properties of specific herbs and minerals and who can come up with an exact prescription of what ingredients you should use to help your exact situation.  (Yes, I do this, and it is often part of the “homework” I give people after a spiritual healing session)

That being said, there are basic ingredients that we can all utilize that are wonderful for most of us to gain the benefits of spiritual bathing. I have included a few of my basic, favorite baths below, and then will tell you how spiritual bathing is done.

Clearing and Releasing Baths
My favorite “basic” bath is a salt bath. This can be as simple as getting dead sea salts or Epsom salts, putting a cup in the bathtub, and soaking in it, with the intent that anything that is not yours and/or anything that wants to clear, can do so.

One of my other favorite baths is with coconut. Ideally you would get a whole coconut, drill three holes in it, put the coconut water in the tub and again intend that anything that is not yours will clear. In some Caribbean traditions you would then fill up the coconut with the dirty bath water (it doesn’t have to be a lot) and release the coconut into the sea or ocean, or at the very least crack it by some sort of body of water to signify that the old energy is leaving and that new energy can come in.

Nurturing and Romance
Goats Milk 
is both mildly clearing as well as deeply nurturing, and is a part of many prescriptions for fertility. The addition of rose petals can nurture as well as allow for a woman to feel romantic about her male partner, or lavender is classically used for women who wish to feel romantic about their female partner.

Any of the clearing herbs can certainly help with protection, but the addition of rosemary will help women to feel protected, especially women who have children. Rue is an herb that is specific to clear negativity and to protect you from negative energy sent from others.

Clearing Jinxes and Crossed Conditions, Starting Anew
Some spiritual situations are incredibly complex or more serious than simply taking a salt bath. Herbs like hyssop combined with agrimony and rue are an excellent place to start. This is a simple prescription for those who have had any sort of magic done against them, or who are spiritual workers to ensure any negativity or backlash has been cleared. Parsley is often used to banish or clear more difficult spirits or energies from us (temporarily, but effectively).

For complex situations (yes I am repeating myself) an individualized prescription is often necessary. Spiritual bathing can be a simple way to work with a variety of situations– from simply creating a fresh start for ourselves, for general release and clearing or “blockbusting”… to specific or difficult situations such as spirit release, undoing the work of others against us (or our subconscious work against ourselves)… to engendering romance, fertility, protection, and better finances and general flow in our lives.

How Spiritual Bathing works
You will simply gather your ingredients. For loose herbs (either dried or fresh) so you do not mess up your bathtub you have two choices:

  1. Put the herb in a large bowl, bring up some water to a boil, and cover the herb with the water and let it steep. When it gets dark/infused, strain it, bring the water portion up to the bath and pour it in with the rest of the water.
  2. Get an empty teabag or cheesecloth and put the herb in. Then put it in the hot water of your bath and let it steep a bit.

For salt you can simply put a cup or two into the bottom of your bathtub. For the coconut you would drill the holes before getting in the bathtub, and simply bring it in the bath with you.

There is no set amount for ingredients, but like a loose leaf tea, you want there to be enough of an impact that the water changes color, that you can smell the herbs, and that you can sense their presence while bathing. There is no set amount for ingredients– meaning that you may choose to take a salt and rosemary bath, or a goats milk and rose petal bath. Or even a salt, hyssop, agrimony, parsley, and rue bath to hedge your bets. With combining ingredients you want to ensure that you are not canceling one out, or adding too many purposes to one bath. You would not want to take a clearing bath and a romance bath at the same time, for example. You would take the clearing bath and then on a separate day take the romance bath. Unless you know what you are doing, simple is often best. A simple salt bath can make a world of difference to someone who is sensitive if done regularly.

How often do I do this?
I suggest to most people that they do a spiritual cleansing bath once a week. Again this can be a simple salt bath.

What do I do?
After gathering the ingredients and putting them in the bath, you will get in the bath. You will state your intent (this bath will clear any negativity, any energy that is not mine, allow for me to move forward in my life, clear any energies/entities, protect me, etc). You may choose to call in a spiritual guide before getting into the bath or utilize source energy/reiki to bring extra energy and intent into the bath as well. Often this is really not necessary, however.

You will then get into the bath and basically take a bath. There are many different cultures who do spiritual bathing and some of them utilize cups (for example) to take the bath water and pour it over the head, letting it run down to the feet.

Many of the directions for spiritual bathing were created in cultures before there were bathtubs, or when they were quite expensive, so I suggest to most people to simply immerse themselves in the bath after stating their intent and allow for the bathwater to be poured or streamed over you head to feet for clearing purposes… and feet to head for anything you want to gain (protection, romance, money, for example). This can be as simple as cupping your hands and pouring a bit over the top of your head and then gently sweeping your body in a downward fashion until you reach your feet.

You then get out of the bath. Like I said, a simple salt bath is often quite effective (just pouring in some salt, sitting in it and saying your intent of clearing, and then getting out). I find that the ritualization of spiritual bathing (or the “classical” rootwork methods) to be quite effective. These are not absolutely necessary, but if you are dealing with a lot of negativity or struggle or you think someone is working against you are something is attached to you, I do suggest doing the ritual in full.

The full ritual:
In rootwork, the bath is often taken at or just before dawn. A portion of the bathwater is saved. You would get out of the tub and air dry. Some people like to step out of the tub between two white candles that are lit to signify that a fresh start is being made. I do find that it is a lovely way to do things.

You would then get dressed, put any clothes you were wearing in the laundry, and bring the portion of the bathwater that you saved to a crossroads (basically where any road intersects with another road). You would then dump out the bathwater you saved over your left shoulder and go back home, taking a different route than you took on the way there. You would not look back at the crossroad that you dumped the water at.

The modified ritual:
Most people who are not in severe situations, or who are willing to make spiritual bathing a routine (as in once or twice a week, or once a week and whenever they are feeling “off”) that they will stick to will do a modified ritual.

You would bathe the same way, collect a portion of the bathwater, step out between the two candles, and then drop the bath water off at a crossroads, in a brook or stream, or ask permission of a tree or other natural object to mulch or dispose of the water for you.

The modified ritual cuts out the air drying, the timing portion, and the ritual of the crossroads (at least to the extent of not needing to do it at dawn, pouring over left shoulder, etc).

A simple bath:
Like I mentioned, most people could really just use a salt bath. Just put the salt in the tub, get in and state your intent, and soak for 10-20 minutes or so.

This cuts out need for downward motion for clearing, collecting bath water, timing, ritual aspects, etc. But even doing a simple salt bath once a week, if done regularly, can clear a lot of energy.

It sounds so simple, but often the simple things are the most effective… we just really want things to be complex because our minds think they will work better. When I began spiritual bathing I didn’t know much about the spiritual properties of herbs and did a salt bath (simple version) once a night for seven nights. My health immediately improved, my fatigue lessened, my energetic space became clearer and clearer. I do realize as a clinician that salt baths also contain a lot of magnesium and minerals that are highly effective, but the effect of not having so much energetic “junk” around me even with the simple bath was astonishing to me. The gradual addition of herbs to help clear, protect, banish, or break through negativity, to nourish, or to bring certain elements to my life as well as the ritualized, classical aspects of it has had an astronomical impact on my life and on my practice.

If you are looking to begin a practice of spiritual bathing, you can contact me for a reading or appointment. Like I mentioned, these are the very, very basics of doing these practices, and with the right prescription the results can be really beautiful. But the practices mentioned are an excellent start at integrating spiritual bathing into your life.


Experiencing Kundalini Part One

One of my biggest issues with current Kundalini literature is that it is either not from direct experience (and this is abundantly clear to anyone that has actually experienced Kundalini), it is from a psychotherapeutic model which has distinct limitations in this realm, that it is new-age(y) and has no basis in what actual Kundalini experiences are like… or that it is from someone who has had a Kundalini stirring, or experience, or even an awakening but is still struggling with the lower layers of this (you can read about different Kundalini experiences here and the basic phases of Kundalini here).

It should, of course, be noted that there are “greater” or “further” or just slightly different experiences than I have had. One of my favorite authors on Kundalini is Gopi Krishna, and his autobiography (in my booklist) is the first that I read (after reading twenty or so books on K in the early days) that I actually knew that he knew what he was talking about, and just the fact that someone was so humble while having experiences such as this, while being a fully awakened individual, was something that I deeply admired (and still do). There are other books on my booklist by B.S. Goel (Third Eye and Kundalini) and Robert Svoboda (Aghora II) and Swami Muktananda (Play of Consciousness) that I highly recommend for anyone who is having a Kundalini awakening.

All that being said, I thought I would talk a bit about my personal, direct experience with Kundalini awakening…

I was always a bit of a strange child who felt things and saw things more deeply than others around me. I was also interested in writing, painting, reading, and utilizing my imagination so I was given the archetype “artist” so that others could readily explain what was different about me in childhood and high school (this still works to this day, now that I think about it). I naturally have always been really sensitive, have been easily able to travel through realms, to see through people, and to see and interact with things that are beyond “normal” sight or experiences (you catch my drift).

In my childhood and early adulthood this was really difficult for me. I was highly empathic, which meant that I picked up everything around me like a sponge. I also experienced headaches and stomach aches, which turned into migraines in my early teenaged years. It is hard to explain this to people without this ability, but I really had no idea who I was because I was always changing my emotions, my physical presence, and even my beliefs towards the dominant energy in the room. At the time, I had no idea I was doing this, why I was experiencing roller-coasters of emotion, why I had such difficulties sitting in class and being in crowds and grocery stores, and why I saw and felt what I did. I realized from an early age that what I was seeing and feeling nobody else around me did. I knew that what I saw and felt and was experiencing was out of the ordinary and made me different so I shut up about it so that other people wouldn’t find out.

My parents understandably took me to counselors and therapists. The best diagnosis they could come up with for me was seasonal depression. I was living in Minnesota at that time, and nowadays I wonder who in Minnesota doesn’t have seasonal depression. Although some of the therapy was moderately helpful, none of the therapists had the knowledge base to help me understand or work with what I was experiencing, or even were able to suggest that I might be sensitive and having difficulties because of those sensitivities. Mostly they did what therapists did– focus on the early childhood, relationships with parents, etc.

In my late teens I went off to college. At college I began having disturbing dreams about being torn apart by animals (you can read about dismemberment dreams here) as well as being eaten or visited by a large snake. Although a topic of a different blog, perhaps, I was experiencing simultaneous Shamanic awakening/calling and a Kundalini awakening. I began experiencing severe spirit-led initiations in 2000/2001. My sensitivities also began increasing, but because I was in college I was able to numb them, as well as the initiation experiences, through various substances. When I was in my last year of college I began receiving guidance (this was totally subconscious at this point by the way) and would randomly (or so I thought) start getting booklets from acupuncture schools and emails about Reiki classes. I only faintly remembered signing up to receive those things, and had no understanding about why I asked for them. My undergraduate degree was in English and Publishing, and I always thought (or knew) that I would be a writer– it was my consistent answer to people when they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.

I graduated from college and moved with my husband back to the Chicagoland area. I began working in retail and doing store sets (basically setting up merchandise according to plans sent by corporate), and then got a job as an obituaries editor as well as took my first Reiki course. This broke something open in me, and I became obsessed… getting many Reiki attunements within a very short period of time (I think about ten within two years or so). I also signed up for massage school, Asian Bodywork school, CranioSacral Therapy classes, and Acupuncture school, and began my meditation practice and research into the occult again.I had been interested in meditation, magic/the occult, and mythology/fairy tales since I was very young, but as a typical teenager these interests ebbed and flowed, and although I had a knowledge base in them starting as a teenager or even a young child, I didn’t start actually having a consistent practice in them until my early 20’s.

If interested, you can read about the intense amount of education from physical sources that I received over a ten year period starting in 2002 here

My Kundalini awakened. Although I can now see signs of it emerging prior to this, it fully erupted at the age of 23. At the time I blamed the Reiki classes, I blamed the meditations I was doing… I thought that there must be a sort of logic about this happening. All of a sudden I felt a huge volcanic blast going up my back into my brain and above my head. It was dizzying– I felt unwell for weeks after. I knew that something profound had change, had shifted, but I was in too much chaos, in too deep in the trenches of the process, to be able to understand anything about it.

My Kundalini erupted first more Pingala-oriented (which emerges to right of the spine and flows up to the nostrils and third eye- google for a picture, but basically it forms the shapes of the chakras along with Ida going up the spine) as well as the central column (Sushumna). At the point of the eruption I felt huge surges of heat and electricity in my body, my pulse rate increased from low 70’s to high 80’s (I was in Acupuncture school at the time, which involves a lot of pulse taking), and my fingers and toes began twitching and spasming.

Then my body began shaking and going into spontaneous yoga poses. I also occasionally experienced body locks, or bandhas, where a portion of my body (it began with my diaphragm, but then would move to my low back/kidney area/sacrum, heart, and throat) would spontaneously contract sucking all of the breath out of my body for periods of time. My migraines increased, and I began experiencing severe itching in my lower body.

I began to be unable to read, to think, and was deeply afraid of what was happening. I was also having a lot of material come up to process. At first memories from childhood, from teenager years, and then from my entire lifetime came up. This was like being in bed and watching a filmstrip of your life flash before your eyes, but also with spontaneous body movements and pain in the area where they were emerging from (memories, or unprocessed memories, are held in the chakras, certain areas of the body, and even the cells until they are resolved and when coming up you will feel pain in the area they are emerging from). This still continues to this day, but is more manageable, especially since I know what is going on and have learned to surrender.

After the first active cycle of Kundalini (the burst above my head) it returned to my lower body… my first chakra. I experienced a lot of heat in that area as well as a lot of emergence of issues held in that chakra. It was overwhelming– in some awakenings a story or a singular memory will emerge. This emergence was of lifetimes of held memories, traumas, ancestral history, my personal history, family issues… everything held in that chakra (well not everything, but a lot) coming up to clear at the same time. This caused me to basically be non-functional. But Kundalini energy is odd… at the same time that I was non-functional I was also hyper-functional, going to Acupuncture school, accomplishing what I was guided to.

Kundalini was very physically oriented, very heat oriented as it rose through my first three chakras. Although there were a lot of emotions that arose, specifically fear, the first three chakras and Kundalini processing energy through them created a lot of physical issues for me. My nervous system was consistently in “fight or flight” mode, my muscles would contract, specifically in the area where Kundalini was clearing blockage, and my thyroid, endocrine, and immune systems took a nosedive. I began having medical issues that no doctor could figure out, huge waves of chills (from Ida, the other side of the body opening up), and periods of time where I had severe insomnia and lots of energy and then another period where I couldn’t get out of bed due to fatigue. My migraines also increased during this time– where I might have had them once a month prior I now would have one once a week with the whole right side of my body contracting.

It was also during this time that I became intolerant of a lot of foods and having difficulty with my digestive system. I could no longer eat ice cream, or dairy, or spice/heat, or complex food (food with too many ingredients in one dish), and became severely allergic to chemicals and hormones in food. I lost a lot of weight in a fairly short period of time, and found that I needed to eat simple dishes (like rice with not much in it) otherwise I would get severe waves of nausea and vomiting. I experienced constant low-grade nausea, a constant headache, and dizziness during this time.

I also began to realize a lot of things about my life and my abilities and understandings of the world began to profoundly change. Around the age of 26 Kundalini began ascending and clearing past my lower three chakras and I began consistently feeling divine flow go through me. I was constantly aware of an ocean of energy within me and surrounding me.This feeling was flickering though, as I returned to processing and the more difficult aspects of the experience. But this flow was blissful, and expansive, and the memory of this flow got me through a lot of the more difficult times.

Once Kundalini cleared a pathway through the first three chakras quite a few of my physical symptoms abated. I began to feel flow through my heart (a bit) and into my throat, which was quite blocked. I also began feeling increased “top down” energies, which I had always felt, but increased from feeling energy going through my crown to feeling of a huge waterfall flowing through my crown. Both the energy going up (kundalini) as well as the energy coming down were greeted by a lot of blockage in my throat and third eye.

In part two I will discuss the second part of my journey with Kundalini

Spiritual Advice: What is Wrong with being a Lightworker?

Dear Mary:

I enjoy reading your blogs. It is nice that it is not a repeat of information like so many blogs tend to be. I appreciate the time and effort that you put into teaching about things that go beyond what is commonly taught or thought about. I do have a question though. In some of your blogs you talk about lightworkers. You speak about how you take issue with lightworkers and what they are doing, but I am not 100% clear why. I am a long time Reiki master and can see how there are some issues, but can you clarify this for me?

In appreciation,


Hi Mel-

Thanks for the email! (If anyone wants to submit a question for my spiritual advice column they can by contacting me with the heading “spiritual advice” and I will answer it if it would make a good blog and/or I am able to).

I have no difficulty with bringing more light into the world, of people doing good or thinking positively. We actually need that in this world, and more of it is always wonderful. What I take issue with is the lightworker community thinking that anything “not light”– and by that I mean their individual and often very puritanical and judgmental version of what “not light” means is– is “bad”, “wrong”, “ego”, or whatever modifier they put on it and is cast aside so that they can only focus on the “light”.

Lightworkers often use the “light” as a way to judge everyone around them (even if they are talking constantly about how “nonjudgmental” they are) and use only focusing on the “light”, the safe, the positive as a way to not look at the world around them, to not look at people, cultures, economic realities, or other situations different than them, and often to not do anything but sit in judgment and victim blame people who are having difficulty in their lives.

It is easy when life is going well to judge other people for attracting negative elements in their lives. It is easy to say that there is a reason for everything, and if something negative happens to someone (diseases, murders, rapes, finances, homelessness, and even smaller things like bugs in the house or cars breaking down, for example, or for spiritual happenings anything from curses to spirits in the house to bad dreams) that they deserved it and/or attracted it to themselves. This is utter bullshit (pardon my language). There are so many different layers of existence, and the reason that a five year old is homeless, or that a woman (or man) just got raped or mugged or killed often has nothing to do with them. And if it does, it has to do with karma (as in, not the new-age definition of karma but as in they are replaying or dealing with an action in a prior lifetime that only vaguely has to do with them in their current incarnation).

As much as the “lightworker” community feigns ignorance (or is actually ignorant) there is more out there than just you creating the universe singularly. There are societal, communal, and global energies that create the world… and beyond that cosmic flows…and we all have ancestral, family, and even past life patterns informing our current existence. Most of us are not aware of any of these patterns and how they make up and/or inform our singular existence. Although it can be really comforting to think in an odd way that a starving five year old somehow “attracted” this energy to her and if you just think positively you will never be homeless, or need food, or have to deal with anything “dark” it simply isn’t true.

The other huge illusion in the “lightworker” community is one of control. All lightworkers I have met have this huge illusion of control. That if only they think correctly, or go to the right amount of yoga classes, or only “journey” to the upper and lower worlds in core shamanism, or don’t read or look at “dark” or “bad” things, that they will be in control of every aspect of their lives and their outer world and their lives will be complete enlightened bliss. This isn’t what any version of actual awakening is like (read my what it is like to be awake here) but helps lightworkers feel like they are in control of everything, including the cosmos, and if they are just positive enough they will get the new car or house they have been wanting.

The biggest difficulty I have with lightworkers, though… is not that they are judgmental, or lack compassion, or victim blame, or try to control everything in the world around them out of a huge misguided fear of control and sub-realization that they are not in fact in control (which is where all of this fear and need for control actually comes from, and why so many of these LOA and other “gurus” can so easily create memes and programs and illusions that are rather meaningless but incredibly popular), and all of the illusions… it is that they do not take care of their own issues, and with the amount of light that grows the amount of darkness grows that needs tending. 

Let me explain. When you take Reiki classes, or you go to a Shamanic workshop, or start getting interested in whatever spiritual or religious path there is a good chance that you will, at least temporarily, be growing your light. In simple terms, this means that the possibility of awakening, or awakening has started… you are beginning to remember or understand your spiritual path (or at least be interested in it), and you are actively sending energy into the world and being in the world in that state.

This can be wonderful. We need more light in this world. But the more light you are aware of the more darkness comes up. It comes up to heal, to be worked with… and to be loved. Darkness isn’t “bad”. It is beautiful. It is as beautiful and special and crucial for awakening as the “light”. It is all light, in fact, the darkest black and the whitest white.

But anyone who is on a spiritual path, anyone who is on any sort of healing path, anyone who is in the awakening process has a responsibility to take care of their own shit. You cannot fault people who are asleep for reenacting their patterns again and again, for putting themselves back to sleep when they are wounded or feel out of control. But people who are awakening are having their issues rise to the surface. Their issues are more active, basically. And these issues, if not taken care of, go into the consciousness of the collective grids. 

Basically, anything you do not take care of is taken up by the collective shadow, by societal, communal, and world energies. It is how war is created, it is how the Kardashians are created… And people who are “awakening” (which all lightworkers are to some degree) have a bunch of energy that is “dark” or rather uncomfortable that is coming up to deal with. And most of them do not. So it goes out into the world.

That is my difficulty with the lightworker community. That beyond the many illusions of control that are created (I still think it is odd anyone thinks they can control the cosmos let alone the spiritual realms)…that beyond the fact that I frequently work doing “fix-it” work from well-meaning but ignorant spiritual practitioners who victim-blamed people, who didn’t help people, or who screwed people up royally… that beyond the fact that they think that everything can be taken care of by sending white (or purple, whatever the trend is these days) light… that lightworkers are not taking care of their own issues that are arising, so those issues are becoming a part of the collective grids, and are just adding on more illusion, more sleep, more anger, more fear, more control issues, more shadow into a world that is already drowning in illusion and neglect of anything considered “dark” or “bad”.

It is only by loving ourselves… every inch of ourselves.. both “good” and “bad”… both “light” and “dark”.. that we can become fully awakened, that we can become fully embodied, fully healed. It is by reconciling ourselves, being at peace with our emotions (all of them), the murderous aspects of ourselves, the demons that we have inside, the fears that we have, the things we have done yet dare not say, the impulses and sexual urges and “sins” that we can do so. They do not need to be cast aside. They do not need to have illusions heaped on top of them. They do not need to be cleared. They need to be loved every bit as much as the brightest happiest joy filled wave of bliss. This is how we stop putting things into the collective. This is how we go beyond illusion. This is how we awaken.

I am now accepting new submissions for the spiritual advice column. If you have a question, feel free to contact me with the heading “spiritual advice”, and I will answer your question if it would make for a good blog and if I can actually answer it.

Surface Understandings and Bodywork, Acupuncture, and CranioSacral Therapy

As many of you may know, I have a bunch of professional licenses/certifications, amongst them Acupuncture and CranioSacral Therapy.

Due to the popularity of Acupuncture combined with the length of most Chinese Medicine schools (3-4 year full time degree), many professions have begun to include Acupuncture in their scope, or have attempted to. The most recent attempt of this is by Physical Therapists, who call Acupuncture “dry needling” and say that their Acupuncture and usage of Acupuncture needles is “scientific” while Acupuncture is a bunch of hogwash. Nowadays Chiropractors, Medical Doctors, Naturopaths, and even Massage Therapists (in Canada) have begun doing Acupuncture with very little training and zero clinical training (most of the time).

The effect of this is either nothing (as in the client gets no benefit), the client actually does get benefit of some sort, or that something awful happens, such as the increased incidents of pneumothorax by physical therapists who have begun doing “dry needling”. But most of the time the effect of this is nothing. This basically means that someone goes to a chiropractor who only has a very surface understanding of Acupuncture and Chinese Medicine, the chiropractor does the same 6, or 12, or 15 points he/she does on everyone (or the only 6 points he/she knows), and the client gets little to no benefit.

And just to show that I am not biased, I will say that this happens a great deal with Acupuncturists as well. Acupuncture has become popular enough that a lot of students are flooding schools. These students may or may not cultivate themselves properly, be able to understand Chinese Medical theory, or ever get to the point that they are actually decent at Acupuncture before they leave the profession (the attrition rate of acupuncturists is pretty awful).

The same thing happens with CranioSacral therapy. Someone takes a weekend course and all of a sudden they say they do CranioSacral therapy, or are a CranioSacral therapist. The most ironic part of this is that I have seen many Acupuncturists (the same ones who may claim that chiropractors and the like are ignorant of Acupuncture and do not have adequate training to practice) have no problem with saying that they are CranioSacral Therapists, Energy Workers, Shamans, Spiritual Guides, or do other forms of bodywork after a weekend course. Ah, life ironies…

Any form of bodywork/massage, CranioSacral Therapy, Acupuncture (and Chinese Medicine) is a lifelong learning process. There is a quote by Ida Rolf, the creator of Rolfing, (I forget the exact quote) saying that she would not consider someone a Rolfer until they had a five year full time practice because before that time they are not doing Rolfing. This sentiment of course extends to any sort of modality including Energy Work, Spiritual Work, and even Psychotherapy.

Bodywork of any sort is an art. It takes time to be become an artist of any modality. Each modality I practice I recognize is a life-long pursuit. I have great admiration for an Acupuncturist I studied under who has been an Acupuncturist for close to forty years, and who comes from a lineage of Acupuncturists and great spiritual men. He is confident yet humble and once said in one of his talks that however much he knows he cannot know everything, and that he has so much more to learn. Each great bodyworker I have met is an artist. His/her work with clients is an artistic expression– as lovely as a painting, a poem, or a piece of music.

It also takes an immense amount of time to be skilled at any form of bodywork (I will use this as a general term meaning Acupuncture, CranioSacral Therapy, Massage, Energy Work, Herbal and Spiritual Work). It is a continual learning process that is never over. Many beginners focus on amassing a great amount of skills and workshops (I sure did at one point in time) and ultimately being skilled means doing one technique, one modality, one expression of that modality correctly. The real skill is the clinician being able to hold space, to hold stillness, so that the client can release their imbalances, traumas, and chaos… and return to a state of greater balance.

It also takes a great amount of knowledge to finally begin to understand any form of bodywork. Study of the history, understanding the innovators, how and why things came about, what it can help or not help with, and understanding the modality itself takes years, decades, and even a lifetime (or several) to understand on a significant level.

Any form of bodywork requires a great deal of cultivation of the Self. It will bring up your own issues, it will be tiring and trying if you do not have the personal cultivation practices to back it up. This means dealing with your own issues on your own time, doing yoga and meditating and building your own personal power so that you do not get burned out or suffer from compassion fatigue.

Finally, any bodyworker that has done significant work has a connection to something greater than themselves. Most are very aware of this. There is only so much one human, one person, one clinician can do. Having a divine connection and understanding of the flows of the universe and how to work with them is something every great bodyworker I know has.

Unfortunately most clinicians are operating with very surface understandings of their modality. Ideally each clinician would take a personal inventory of themselves and realize that there are certain conditions that they are unable to treat, that there are certain people they do not resonate with, and that there are certain modalities they are a beginner at and refer out. This does not happen. So what happens is that we have many people going to see Acupuncturists, CranioSacral Therapists, and Bodyworkers of all sorts who are not very good. Instead of saying that the clinician cannot help them, the client often says that Acupuncture didn’t help them. This is unfortunate, because Acupuncture with an artist, one who has cultivated themselves and studied and knows Acupuncture on a deep level could likely transform their life with a few needles.

This pattern of operating in the clinical world used to upset me. I would hear Acupuncturists (even fully licensed ones who have gone through four years of school with a clinical practice) tell me that they didn’t believe in qi and Craniosacral Therapists ask how they should treat an MS patient (when anyone who has even taken the first course in CranioSacral therapy knows that it is intended to be deeply individualized and that is why it works so well). I have had patients tell me Acupuncture doesn’t work when it is obvious they just went to a crappy Acupuncturist and patients tell me that they are learning CranioSacral therapy and when I look at their teacher they have only had a minimal amount of training.

But I have made my peace with this (although I have been talking about it a bit lately). Most of the world is at surface level understandings, and this includes clinicians. People who find me for CranioSacral therapy are ready for deep work. If they wanted more surface work they would find the practitioner who had one weekend of training. People who find me as a spiritual teacher are ready to move beyond the illusions of the New-Agers or the surface understandings of most spiritual communities, books, etc. And just to prove that I have humility, I will say that people find me for Acupuncture when they are ready for an intermediate-level clinician for that. It is such a rare, beautiful thing when you find a bodyworker who is a true artist. They can truly be life-changing. Be ready for one. Be open to one. Know that any of these modalities have their charlatans, their weekend warriors, the people who have taken one workshop and list themselves as an expert, the people who teach after taking a few classes. But there are true artists out there, people who can help you move beyond this surface clinical reality and hold space for you, be a catalyst for you to have tremendous healing, to find true balance and peace in your life.

Top Ten Myths about Kundalini Awakening

Much like the “12 Myths about Shamans” blog that you can access here, there is a huge amount of misinformation about Kundalini and Kundalini awakening out there. There is very specific criteria for what is considered a Kundalini awakening, some of which you can read about here (you can also click or search for “Kundalini in this blog).

The reason that so many people are confused about Kundalini is that modern spiritual circles and authors have heard about Kundalini from a teacher or book and then passed on wrong information. It is like a bad game of telephone… where one teacher has formulated an idea about what Kundalini is without reading any classic scripture such as the Vedas, Gopi Krishna, or even Wikipedia, and has not had any sort of direct experience with it… teaching students their ideas about it, and those students go on from the already watered down version of their teacher and add their own pop-culture twist to it, etc.

As a note, before we begin, I sometimes get a lot of flack from people who argue with me that “nobody really knows what a Kundalini awakening is” or that “sources disagree” or that “everybody has an equal, valid opinion”. My general answer to that is that spiritual syndromes, such as Kundalini, are written about extensively through source material (meaning you will have to read something fifty years old or much, much older). There are precise accounts, symptoms, and understandings of what Kundalini and a Kundalini awakening is. You can only argue about something if you do not know what you are talking about. Picture this- you go to your doctor and insist that you have Leprosy. Your skin is not falling off, you don’t have any sores, and you have no muscle weakness. The doctor insists that you do not have Leprosy because you do not have any of the signs. But you insist. The same thing happens all the time with Kundalini and Kundalini awakenings. It is simply the newest, pop culture spiritual “issue” to come about- people hear about it and it seems like an intense experience and so they want it, or think they have it. But most people do not, and never will. And not everyone has an equal, valid opinion about everything. My friend that studies tRNA certainly has a much more valid “opinion” about it than I do.

Now that I am done ranting, here is the list…

10 Myths about Kundalini Awakening

1. A Kundalini awakening is something that happens once or twice. This is a myth. A Kundalini awakening is a permanent condition. People who have awakening Kundalini permanently feel it. It is constantly working, constantly doing things in your body. It may have more active and less active periods, and even periods of relative dormancy, but even in those periods you are still aware of it. If Kundalini is something that happens once or twice, it is likely not Kundalini. It is possible to have a Kundalini stirring, a temporary realization of the energy, but these are low-level, meaning that they are a temporary occurrence and the person can go back to their existence once it is through in relatively the same manner as they entered. For more about the different sensations of Kundalini, such as stirring vs awakening, go here.

2. I can awaken my own Kundalini, or have a guru do it for me. This is a popular myth. It is so popular because people make a large amount of cash from it. I have never met a tantra teacher, Reiki master, Spiritual/Energetic practitioner, or guru of any sort who actually has awakened Kundalini that would promise to awaken yours. It just doesn’t happen, and is a scam perpetrated by people who do not have awakened Kundalini. Because if you do have an awakened Kundalini, you have ethics and have to tell the truth and live a righteous sort of existence, especially if the energy has gone above your third chakra. It literally injures you to lie (this actually can suck sometimes, but I digress).

Any guru or teacher who has an awakened Kundalini knows that whether or not your Kundalini is going to awaken has to do with fate, not with you doing breathing exercises or clearing your chakras. When my Kundalini was still in my lower chakras I blamed myself for “activating” my Kundalini due to Mantak Chia’s Microcosmic/Macrocosmic Orbit. I was very upset with myself for a very long time. Until Kundalini reached my third eye, and I realized that anyone that I have worked with or met who has awakened Kundalini it is a result of it simply being time for their Kundalini to awaken. People can meditate for decades and not have their Kundalini awaken, people can also never meditate and not consider themselves spiritual at all and suddenly be in the midst of a brutal Kundalini awakening. Bottom line… it is not in your control. It is a divine, vital force. Do not spend your money on people who are all too willing to “activate” your Kundalini for you.

3. Feeling of energy moving or twitching hands/feet is Kundalini. One of the biggest symptoms of a Kundalini awakening are kriyas and mudras (hand, finger twitching and body movements happening spontaneously). However there is a huge difference between nervous system activation, qi circulation and feelings of qi, and Kundalini. 99 percent of the time that twitching, energy movement, and even hand/body spontaneous positions occur it is either the body releasing energy or trauma or it is qi, a force that we can all feel if we do some work to, such as through meditation, Reiki, tai chi, martial arts, yoga, etc. Qi is a vital force that creates our world- it flows through it. It is a magnificent thing to feel, to be aware of. But it is not Kundalini.

4. Reiki awakens Kundalini. This is a big one that people really, really want to believe. Most of the people that believe this are Reiki teachers and students who have felt wonderful energy of all sorts and insist that it is Kundalini. In some cases Reiki can certainly be a catalyst to awaken Kundalini (that was already fated to happen). I did something like ten different attunments within a year which was really not a smart idea and possibly caused my Kundalini to awaken a few years before it was supposed to (according to my Vedic astrologer). Even “Kundalini” or “Tummo” Reiki are not guaranteed to awaken Kundalini. I have certainly met plenty of Reiki practitioners, even “Kundalini” ones who would not know the energy if it sat across from them in a bar. I have certainly crossed paths with some who have awakened Kundalini, but Kundalini awakenings are fairly rare, and Reiki doesn’t awaken Kundalini… if anything Reiki allows for us to feel and work with qi and for some practitioners, to channel energy.

5. Kundalini yoga awakens Kundalini Kundalini yoga is one of the biggest fads right now (in the United States especially). I have never actually met or interacted with a Kundalini yoga teacher that actually knew what Kundalini was beyond a very basic, intellectual understanding of the subject. Breath of fire and the type of breathing and environment that Kundalini yoga creates get us in touch with our qi and our yang, our own ministerial fire- the fire of our own bodies. It gets us in touch with our chakra system, allows for us to become more aware, and it may get us in touch with our spiritual and divine natures. But this does not equal a Kundalini awakening. Getting in touch with ourselves is wonderful, exercise is wonderful… but Kundalini yoga is actually one of the most detrimental activities that someone undergoing a Kundalini awakening can do. Heat is not good for the already hot nature of Kundalini (or really anyone who is not of a robust, very health and vitalized constitution), and the breathing techniques can be extraordinarily damaging, particularly if you are having a block in one of your lower chakras and are undergoing a Kundalini awakening. Top this off with a teacher who likely only has an intellectual understanding and no direct experience of Kundalini you can find yourself in a lot of trouble.

Again, no activity is going to trigger Kundalini if it is not going to happen. Feeling heat or qi is wonderful, but someone can go to a Kundalini yoga class once and have a Kundalini awakening, and someone else can be a teacher of yoga for twenty years and not have an awakened Kundalini.

A note about this: I am sure that my bias is showing slightly with these last two categories. I have worked with many people who have gone to yoga classes and had either a temporary experience of Kundalini or a full-blown Kundalini awakening and their teachers had no idea what to do. I also have worked with and interacted with many Reiki masters/teachers and practitioners from all over the globe, many of whom are lovely people, but most have not had any sort of direct experience of Kundalini. These teachers will then teach their students that they are activating their Kundalini, or what Kundalini is, without having any sort of understanding of it. These same teachers will then have students have difficulties and they will either dismiss their students or give them really terrible advice because they don’t know what they are talking about. Although this seems brutal to say, it happens often (and I have the thousands of emails over the past few years to prove the sort of weird, misguided advice and odd behavior that teachers can have when presented with something like Kundalini that is way past their own experience level).

Read Part Two of Top Ten Myths about Kundalini Awakening

Spiritual Advice Column: Permission to do Energy Work


our guitar player got mad at me tonight for channeling someone’s pain
away into my body where I can give it back out to ocean because I didn’t ask
permission to do so??? Then she sent me your link..and I read what you said
about wrong uses of energy transfer…but I’m simply taking pain away…like
via magnetic intentionality…is that wrong to do without explicit
permission from the person I am healing???



Although it sounds like you had wonderful intentions, unless you had her permission ethically it was not the correct thing to do. People have pain for a reason, and it is their job to figure out why that is, and to experience it. By taking it away, you may have stopped an experience they were likely supposed to have or a lesson they were to learn.

You can simply ask for permission from someone to do what you are doing. That way they are aware of it and can say yes or no. Most people, naturally, say yes. If you want to be more interactive with it without asking them, you can utilize something like Ho’oponopono where you heal the part of yourself that resonates or has created that person. You can do this by simply saying internally to yourself “I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you” for the part of you that created or wants to interfere with her pain.

If you are an empath or are physically or emotionally feeling their pain I always suggest to people to say thank you (internally) for the information, but that I do not need to feel their pain. Then it usually goes away.


P.S. Here is the original article on ethics here and the second article on ethics here

Interested in submitting to the Spiritual Advice column? Contact me here with the heading “Spiritual Advice”. Please note that I am not an allopathic physician or psychiatrist, and my advice is not intended as substitution for the advice of those professionals. I reserve the right to edit emails for clarity.

Mary Shutan L.Ac, CST-D, CZB, ABT offers readings, services and programs for people undergoing Spiritual Awakening issues, including Kundalini syndrome, as well as for people dealing with psychic abilities. You may contact her to set up a consultation for an appointment or go here for information on readings.

Ethics in Spiritual Healing, Reiki & Energy Work

When I attended a workshop a few months ago, I sat next to a woman who took one look at me and told me rather rudely that my crystal was “dirty” and it needed cleaning, and how and with what I should do this. She then said “Sorry” without meaning it, and sat back in her seat. At first I was angry at her- this was before we had established any sort of rapport and we hadn’t done much besides for exchange names.

When I took a step back from the situation, I realized that she was simply angry and rude with the world- she was going through some difficult life experiences and since I was a relatively calm person she wanted to entrain me into her world of anger and hurt. Reflecting even more, I realized that she was someone who was feeling out of place at the workshop, and that she was attempting to establish some credibility amongst professionals who had much more experience than her.

And when I stepped back even further from the situation, it got me thinking about ethics in the field of Energy Work. This simply isn’t talked about much- it is left to courtesy and manners that people who are sensitive or trained in energy work don’t go around telling people what their issues are or how to fix them. As Energy Workers, we see so much, but as ethical energy workers, we are not supposed to work without permission or tell people what we see because they may not be ready to hear it, or may not want for others to notice.

I work with and have trained many Reiki practitioners. When a natural disaster happens, plenty of Reiki practitioners “send Reiki” to the site because they believe it to be helpful. Sometimes they do so to specific people they have seen on the news or to the entire area. But is sending Reiki to an individual that has not given permission ethical? If you are a powerful energy worker who can work with the concept of the higher self and ask their higher self, the answer is maybe. But since most of us have egos, sending energy to someone who has no knowledge of it and did not request it is not typically ethical.

And what of sending energy to that whole disaster site? Plenty of us were doing this for the tornadoes in Oklahoma, or the Boston bombings. Sending energy to those sites is a lovely concept, but what sort of energy are you sending? Are you sending in your fears? Your obsessive energy? Energy that is unstable or based off a sense of ego- you feel unsafe and want to do something about a situation that you have no control over? Sending Reiki or energy to these sites can be a good thing, if your energy is stable, clear, and you are able to understand when not to intervene if something larger and more spiritual is going on. During these situations though, I have seen time and again that many energy workers are cording themselves to the situation and become tethered to it- becoming obsessive, fearful, constantly feeling in their own body what is going on with the situation. They are then reflecting this energy back through the cord to a situation that does not need any more fear, chaos, or heightened energy.

The next time you “send Reiki” to a person or site, question your ethics, the energy you are sending, and whether you are doing so out of a sense of help or ego. Sending Reiki, reading someone, or working energetically can be a beautiful thing when it is done with permission (ideally in person, or if necessary through the higher self), and with a sense of calm, clear, powerful energy. But often this energy is sent out of feelings of loss- loss of control, uncertainty on a personal level, and is not helpful to the situation. Consider the next time you work energetically if your ethics are impeccable. If they are, proceed. If not, reconsider how you can help the situation or take some time to reflect.